Recently I was reading about fervent prayer being prayed with persistent and desperate clamouring for God to move and break through. I have been praying so desperately for a situation to have the hand of God come upon and bring transformation. However, in my desperation I can feel as though my desperation is over-riding my faith and therefore perhaps becoming null and void since it is impossible to please God without faith.. How do we know when it is fervent prayed with desperate longing, and when it is faithlessly desperate and a cry from the depths of pain from our desperation rather than God’s goodness and our awareness of His power?
I’ve been told I think too much(!) but I so want to be a person of faith and who is desperate to call out to God- but in faith- and not with a desperate pain that hurts and cuts deep within that comes from an unsure awareness of whether God will answer or not.. Or are both of them the same??
God, please make us aware of what faith really looks like and how to operate in this. Fill us with the gift of faith that speaks to the not as though it is. Remove all forms of unbelief from us- whether it is dressed up as faith, or exposed for the lack that it is. In our absolute desperation of heart, please fill us with faith and fervency to pray Your will be done, and not to pray from a desperately insecure image of who we believe You to be- that we feel we have to beg and plead and try and twist Your arm to move. If we are in ignorance of our lack of faith please stir within us a major shift and draw us closer to you so that we can undress ourselves of religion and ‘talking the talk’ and actually begin to live undeterred by what is seen and how we feel, and press on to all that you are and have. Thank you that You are not distant nor into head-games and hurting us ‘to teach us lessons’. Forgive us where we have got You so wrong and bound You within our small limited mindsets and faith levels. In the mighty name of Jesus. Amen.
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