The first (and I think only) time I have been inspired by God with a Spanish song of worship was a few years back when I was on my way home from work. I was singing in my head while on the bus and then softly to myself while walking home. The words seemed to just flow as I sang and they were all in Spanish (the language that I am forever trying to learn). I was so amazed that I was then distracted in wanting to make sure I could remember the lyrics but had nothing on me to write them down with. As I was distracted with trying to make sure I could remember for later, I had a sense of God being gutted that I couldn’t just live in the moment and sing freely without distraction. I felt that if I couldn’t enjoy the spontaneous moment of worship now then I would miss the moment. Inside I had to make the decision (the ones that happen in split seconds) about whether I wanted to live the true moment of pure worship and connection, or risk it for trying to take note to perhaps use to show off to others, show off to myself, sing again from a more “polished” heart. I chose to live in the moment and realigned myself to be 100% fully present with God. It was like I was being gifted with Spanish and creativity to then offer back to Him, and there was just a union of relational buzzingness!
By the time I got home, I had no words at all in my memory of what I had been singing- absolutely nothing! It was like I was given words and song for a moment in time to use- for just the two of us- and, as much as I was a little bit feeling “ah, that’s a shame”, I was so chuffed to have spent that time in authentic worship and union with the God Almighty, Creator and Father.
I love connecting with God through worship and music and song and am not against any of this at all. My desire on top of all of that would be that when it is just meant for the privacy between the Father and his kid, let’s not miss those moments of connection. Of course we are all family as the Body of Christ, but God is also a Father who sees, knows, and loves each and every one of us as individuals.
Just like in every relationship- not everything has to be shared with everyone. Sometimes songs, words, wisdom is for us alone to cherish and ponder these things in our hearts.
Let’s keep ourselves aware we have an audience of One, not of a crowd.
I have found that to develop faith and position ourselves in honour of God, it can sometimes feel like we end up ‘homeless’ and that we have nowhere to go but Him- the only place where we are understood, or just simply at peace when we don’t understand ourselves, never mind being understood by others!
When we don’t understand, when we’re cast down, when we are alone and feel down and out- let’s stay the course and know that even when we feel alone; we aren’t. We have a great cloud of witnesses- people gone before and those who are alongside running their race also.
Keep going.. Don’t compromise what isn’t negotiable. Stay true, authentic, and keep wrestling and pursuing Truth, Life, and Love. It will cost us everything. But everything costs- let’s be wise with how we spend our life and not regret spending cheaply.. 🙂
I have a great friend who sometimes I wonder if their behaviour towards me is out of their feelings of duty towards me, or if it is from their desire to support me. It is such an insecure and weird feeling. It makes me feel like I’m ungrateful for their support, but then I also don’t want someone to feel that they have to support me out of duty..
I understand the whole ‘faith and works’ and that sometimes honour needs to serve whether we feel like it or not. I also know that in marriages it does not always feel great and therefore decisions to love need to over-ride other feelings. And therefore this is a current wrestle that I have within me, not only in my own relationships but also with God Himself.
I do not want to serve God out of duty but desire. But the actual service of love takes discipline and choices that can be challenging or uncomfortable.
I’m not really sure.. Maybe these words are even friends..? Maybe duty takes position when desire is low, and desire takes place as duty starts to fade..?
Either way, I so want to live life from and in the freedom of desire and not the command of duty.
If you want to make the greatest investment, then take note of the eternal as well as this lifetime. Time spent in prayer will never be time lost or wasted.
How many of us can watch the news, TV series, netflix, whatever, with total ease for hours on end, and yet struggle to gather ourselves for time in prayer?
This last year we have been given the gift of time. How many of us have chatted on about not having time?! Well, we have it now! And how have we spent it..?! It’s interesting how we are often very good at chatting on about good intentions, but not so good at being actually honest or loyal to what we promised.. Even to God.
It is always what is least edifying that is the easiest option, and what is the most powerful option has to be fought for- in determination, intention, sacrifice..
Prayer is like this. Yet it is speaking with God- Creator of Heaven and Earth. How crazy that this incredible privilege is something that we allow the cheap distractions of life to take us away from.. And yet surely we can understand from this that there is a war for our attention. To keep us numb and ineffective, distracted into confusion about our identities as we watch and compare ourselves with culture- the culture we are called to add seasoning to and to demonstrate the Love and Truth of God. The God who created each and every person perfectly and with His designed identity for each and every one. The God who calls Himself our Father.
We are so toxified and in desperate need of coming back to the Father’s house. We have wandered off for way too long and need to come back to find ourselves in the One who is Truth. Who is our Truth. And The Truth. And to do this, we need to talk to Him. We simply need to spend time talking and listening, communicating and building with Him. This is time investment that will resound through eternity. That will be able to join with communications of others to release prayerful movements of God.
Time in prayer is never wasted. But there will always be a battle for it. The devil will never fight for anything where there is no spoils. Remember that. And push back harder.
I’m not sure if you’ve read in the news recently about the earth spinning faster and the days getting shorter, but how interesting is that?!? This is not “Biblical” or “religious” news but scientific. There is no mention of God at all, but we know He fills the whole earth.
It brings to mind that the Bible is absolutely timeless, and that we have already read in the Bible that God has told us that the days will get shorter, and that it will be a good job because it would be unbearable if they don’t.. This is massive information for us to take heed of. Whatever age and era we are born in, we only have a very limited amount of time here because of the time limits on these bodies, and so we must be aware that the time is always now for us to act, to speak, to seek, to find… Let us not put off what needs to be done now..
Surrender. Trust. And get deployed into what God has for you in this lifetime. You have been born for such a time as this. Don’t waste any more of the time that is spinning out of our hands.
We have all had people in our lives who are great at talking and saying the right things…and yet we just do not feel the heart from them.
We can be physically so close to someone and yet feel so far from them. And yet can feel the heart of someone from across the world.
This goes to show us that we are deep beings and can discern true authenticity. I believe God shows us this so that we can be aware of how often we treat Him, and that He wants our hearts involvement and deep personal investment, not our lip service and small talk.
God wants us– our lives surrendered completely unto Him- not our cheap talk about it.
Let us honour God and our relationships with Truth and heart.
Acts 27 in the Bible is about Paul being shipwrecked with the crew and all that were on board. God gives Paul instruction and hope that he will live and not die. And yet everything around him is stripped away and lost.
This is what we need to realise- sometimes the promise of God for our lives is actually a pretty painful and stressful process! He is not too interested in keeping us warm and comfortable in our transition periods, but He is also not a “head-messer”. I don’t believe He would ever do something out of a weird, painful, head-mess way just to “teach us a lesson”. His ways are perfect. We will perhaps not often understand His ways as they are higher than ours, but He will shield all of us who trust in Him.
Yesterday we had snow come down in a few hours that brought so much change!
Snow always gives me so much to ponder about! It is so amazing to me! For me it represents so much of God. We can lift our faces towards the falling snow and hardly feel the fragile flakes as it falls upon us, and yet it can cause chaos on the roads that bring cars and strong vehicles to a halt.
Small children can mould and create with their small hands and yet it needs big snow plough vehicles to move it off the roads.
People come out of their houses to play and laugh and enjoy the freshly fallen white blanket of snow, while cars are kept blocked in, or jammed up.
It is so amazing that it causes such polarised living! For some it brings community, creativity, laughter, togetherness.. For others, it causes disturbance, frustration, insecurity, danger.
And this is how God also is! He continues to present to us our choice of response. Will we continue to try and get through in our own strength.. Or submit to Him and start to live “outside” of our self-built/bought cages..?
Let us choose Life! Let us live fully and embrace every uncertainty and change and “hindrance” with eyes of faith and excitement and creativity!